musings of life

watching the street, as the people pass, only a fairy tale can pass. waiting for a bus, the people walk. stare stare away at the feet of the day, hoping not to trip along the way. they see the light of hte city streets and alas they hope that they might have a little bit left. still waiting amongst the shuffle of time. One gives up, another walks by, until the glisten of the city bus moves by. people dont make eye contact, oh my what a stare that would be in the crisp air. pods of humanity all alone, all with lives of their own. As i watch society, it always intrigues me that thousands of people around me have places to go and people to see. emotions they feel, wants, desires, hopes and dreams. Yet we always consider ours above others. well sure we think that because we're not in their shoes. Its only when we're inspired that we so choose to be involved. If we really believed what we say we believe.... then our lives would be different, so very different. I would hope that my life would be a better reflection of light. Yet we cannot be truly Christ but that was the example modeled for us. Currently i'm working for washington state university and for a non profit at that as apart of my daily activities. Man is that overwhelming. Yet its all about priorities. life is about just that. malawi is currently the 4th poorest nation in the world and yet do we as americans make it a priority? i know i try but thats because i work and try and get partnerships setup with people in malawi and hope that it can make a hiuge differece to the people there. Overwhelmed i might seem but thats because i cant control a darn thing. Waiting and watching is the way i go , sadly not free and easy like dirks bently always said. the other end is responsibility. I am responsible for myself and myself alone yet as soon as others get involved i assume responsibility for them. whether its a room mate or friend, how else do you define responsibility in relationships with other people? makes me wonder what its going to be like to have a relationship and then have to decide and choose and be responsible before her and God. Responsible for work, location, spiritual stuffz, and so much more. As much as Ive gotten overwhelmed and busy, it drives me even further in my needs fro God especially when im so busy i dont have time. it drives me to my knees before God because I know i cant do it on my own. that time is now and it seems so odd, that anxiety can push through such uprising of times. But im ready and willing to face that challenge for yet it is still just God wanting em to grow and have my significance fully in God, for he is the best.

-AdamMosesJones