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-AdamMosesJones

Discouragement of a external source

Now there are many ways we can be discouraged in our lives, for me it usually tends to be me self analyzing too much and i really come down harshly on myself. The other form is when we know someone was counting on us and we let them down. Another one dealing with people is where we unknowingly did something and the person becomes upset at us. I've recently come across another type of discouragement. It is where you (person A) wish to help person B, and you offer advice or services and then person C comes along with much better advice or abilities or services and person B is grateful for the help from person C. Now the focus of this was to help person B, and that was a shared goal by both A and C. C did not mean for A to feel inferior, yet in some weird way, it may discourage person A even though the initial goal was achieved. Now why would this even matter? Well to dive further in, was the discouragement stemming from the lack of ability to sufficiently help person B or is it a prideful hurt that was unintentionally done by person C? For more information concerning the situation we must ask what is the relationship between A and B. Are A and B just friends or acquaintances or is A attempting to find themselves in a position where B would be reliant on A e.g. dating relationship/marriage. Then we have to ask what is C's relationship with B and A. Before i make this into a soap opera, in which nothing is accomplished, the core issue comes back to discouragement. Is it a legitimate experience? possibly. But where should our hope and and self worth come from? From our Lord Jesus Christ.

-AdamMosesJones

10 min before end of work

Yeah, im feeling like i need to ramble just a bit today. Its funny because as humans we are always looking forward to the next big thing. Even in the book by Ted Dekker, The Slumber of Christianity, this is the case. We are always feeling like we need to wake up and find ourselves in heaven and then we get our big pay off. All the this is going on we're subconsciously and sometimes very consciously waiting for our time on earth to end so that we can go about being happy in heaven. Content is the issue. Why do i bring this topic up? Well ive found myself lacking contentment lately and its been bugging me alot. I've found that i have an awesome ministry, I just got a mac at work so i can fulfill my work appropriately, i have an awesome car, awesome friends, longboarding is pretty bawesome, etc. and yes i just used the word "Bawesome." So why am i discontented? I have no idea, it might be my food didt really sit well with me and i dont feel up-beat or it really could be that I need to start counting my blessings more, or just need to have more worship music playing to help lift my spirits in the meandering parts of the day. as far as society is concerned, I am horribly unhappy because i dont party, drink, have a girl friend or lead a promiscuous life. As far as society is concerned, society itself can go shoot itself for believing that those things will really make you happy. The thing we have to come back to, is Joy vs. Happiness. Happiness happens, joy is everlasting. So it has become my week goal to walk out in Joy in my heart and life for I know the things my savior has done for me and it should reflect in my life, regardless of what im feeling in the here and now. As far as unmet legitimate desires, well God is my rock and my refuge and I will abide in Him and his shadow for my fufillment and wait patiently upon the Lord.

-AdamMosesJones

Spec'in a new rig

Well im torn. I really want a quad monitor setup. and i could do it but i would have to change my setup to a water cooled and spend $200 on a single card with 4 dvi outputs (already have the water cooled system but its in another pc). Or i could spend about $400 and get a quad core, 2 cards with 2 dvi each = quad monitor, 8gb setup, and basically double my entire pc specs.... cant really afford it right now though and if i did update later on i could use the $200 still..... so hard >_<

-AdamMosesJones

Been a while since i posted last

ya stuff has been busy as of late but thats ok. I recently went on a camping trip and it made me think alot. the reason i thought alot was because i had alot of time to myself which is why i thought of something to write here :) So essentially i'll admit im not a great camper, outdoors person, etc. and i even fell asleep in the sun and burned a little bit which, if you knew me irl, is very hard to do. But the fact of the matter is, i really dont interact well with others. one girl kept saying through the whole weekend how creepy and weird i was (known her for 2 years). Now i admit im nerdy, but im not THAT weird. but apparently my social skills are not usually up to snuff. Now i recently also had some hits to my self esteem, and it really made me wonder why in the world im even leaving my house because of what everyone says and does. mind you this is in the context of a church/bible study group atmosphere. As christians are we that judgmental to the point of even little things are weird or creepy? I know no one is perfect and everyone judges but seriously, i dont blame people for not wanting to be or hangout with christians. I also began to wonder if alot of things that God even blesses us with are worth it sometimes. but thats a rant i dont feel like going into today. Patience, and long suffering are the keys though in my opinion. God tells us to wait, and know that his plans are above our own. i would agree and do my best to walk out in obedience.

-AdamMosesJones

perma linkages

well in an effort to generate more traffic i have permalinked everything to a better pattern. hopefully it helps. me and my boss might put together a marketing website that we update every so often with some resources and strategies. dunno if we will yet or not but that could be alot of fun.

-AdamMosesJones

inadequacy

The quality or condition of being inadequate. An instance of being inadequate; a failing or lack. ------------------------------ When the dictionary defines inadequacy, it defines it as a condition. as condition can imply circumstances and personal experience and in some ways personal choice. we can choose to be inadequate in a skill area because we dont take the time for training for instance. we can only consider that life circumstances havent allowed for us to be trained in a certain area as well. We might also have a wool pulled over our eyes, eg. a lie. whether the lie is from ourselves or external forces, eg. satan or people, we can believe fully that we are inadequate in whatever area of life is bothering us. So how do we determine its a lie? well the bible says all things are possible with God, phillipians 4:13, and it also implies that if we had the faith of a mustard seed we could walk on water and move mountains. Now allbeit i believe this can happen as illustrated by peter in the new testament. Jesus said follow after me, which numa videos explain as, come and do as i do. so if we're called and chosen by God as his children, ephesians 1, then why do we feel inadequate when we can do as he does and all things are possible? i dont know... maybe someone can tell me.

-AdamMosesJones